Alive Dead Alive

For thirty years, OCD held me captive in plain sight. While climbing the corporate ladder from doorman to general manager and later building my own business in the conference industry, I was dying inside - fighting internal battles every five minutes of every day. No conventional therapy helped. This raw and powerful account chronicles an unprecedented journey through three distinct phases: being alive, experiencing a profound internal death, and finding an unexpected path to revival. Written in concise, stark, compelling narrative, this story reveals how certain traits common among those with Obsessive Compulsive Disorder - including analytical thinking, strategic planning, and relentless persistence - often intensified by the condition - ultimately became tools for survival and transformation. After exhausting every traditional medical option, I discovered hope through alternative treatments, carefully researched and approached with the same analytical mindset that had both haunted and helped me throughout my journey. This unique perspective on mental health transformation focuses not on the condition itself, but on the human spirit's capacity for renewal after decades of darkness. It offers hope without false promises, truth without sugar-coating, and proof that sometimes the way back to life comes through unexpected doors. A must-read for anyone interested in mental health recovery, personal transformation, psychological resilience, and the power of human determination. This story demonstrates how even after thirty years of suffering, there can be a path back to life.